restrictive vs. resistant

From time to time, I pull what I refer to an advice card to get a message for the day. Today I pulled the card "Honor Your Beauty." I have pulled this card before. I notice that sometimes the same card has a different message from the last time because of what has happened in my life.

I look in the mirror at myself to see what I see.  I look like my dad, Phillip.

Growing up and into my adulthood my dad and I didn't have the closest relationship.  I viewed him as being restrictive and set in his ways and opinions.  Thus, I resisted and rebelled.  I wanted to be my own person, viewed for who I am and not compared to others or encouraged to be like someone else. Ironically, I spent many years trying to fit in and be the person others thought I should be!

I realize and admit that my resistance was part of the problem.

Thank you, Dad. In truth, I am very much like you and it is you who helped me form a strong vision of who I am.  It helped me to grow into the beautiful, loving and accepting person I have become.  I love you, and should have said it sooner.